It’s been a few months since I posted about gaining weight. The cold hard truth is that I’ve only lost ten pounds since then and have been struggling to keep the weight off.
I’ve struggled with headaches and migraines for the past 7ish years which means that I’ve been on and off medications more times than I can count trying to find a solution. In 2017 I started to gain weight from the medicine that I was on and couldn’t seem to lose it. I gained about 40 pounds very quickly and there wasn’t much I could do. I know that sounds like an excuse but the medicine I was on really does cause weight gain and at the time it was prescribed I was a healthy 23 year old so my neurologist wasn’t worried about that particular side effect.
In 2018 I stopped taking that medication and stared taking Trokendi XR which I’ve talked about a few times in past posts. I was so sick the whole time that I was able to lose 10 pounds in under a month. One of the side effects of Trokendi is weight loss so I worked with a doctor and knew that it was “healthy”.
Now I have about 40 pounds to go before I’m back to my healthy weight. I only really weigh myself when I’m at the doctor because I have such a negative association with the scale.
I wanted to share this post to let you know that my mindset towards weight loss and being “healthy” is going to change. For the past year I have beat myself up every single day for letting myself go. I’ve refused to look in the mirror or be in pictures. I have told myself over and over again that I’m fat, worthless, and that I’ll only love myself if I lose weight.
But guess what?
All of those statements are wrong. I’m not worthless. I shouldn’t be embarrassed of being in pictures or looking in the mirror. I should love my body for carrying me through every single day of my life thus far.
I can be healthy. We all have choices everyday and these choices lead us down a certain path. In believing that I am worth the struggle, worth the time and energy I will start working towards a healthy lifestyle.
This is my year and I can choose to be anything I want to be.
I choose to be healthy and you can choose to be too. You first need to find the mindset and make the choice.
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Life of Hayley 
Aw, i’m sorry you are going through this. * hugs *
I don’t particularly like this general opinion about weight gain = laziness. Especially when it happens very suddenly and it doesn’t go away after implementing some changes. I’m glad you figured out it was the medication and you have the option to change it.
You can do this! 🙂 ❤
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Thank you! I try not to be too hard on myself but I know that I have the opportunity to make a change and I don’t want to take it for granted. I know that some people struggle more than others with weight gain/loss and being in this situation has started to make me way more empathetic to others. Thank you so much for your continued support! ❤
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First, I want to pray for you. This has been very difficult season for you. Mya God get you through and heal you in the process. I agree. You choose what works for you and your body, but don’t let the mirror make you feel indifferent. I found adding a scripture or inspirational quote to the mirror helps our mind steer in that direction. Or do like I do, say to myself every morning, “You are Gods masterpiece. You are beautifully and wonderfully crafted by God.” I know for sure when you pour into the spirit with Gods love, your radiance glows on the outside. 🙏🏼 I pray everything turns around.
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Thank you, Tiffany! Your kind words always mean so much to me! ❤ That's a great idea! I will add something uplifting to my mirror and I know that will help me.
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You’re welcome, friend 🤗
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